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Entry tags:	dustiedoll, gentle lie, photomanipulation, photos, the gazette

Whispers of a Gentle Lie

Gentle Lie 弱さのせいしたのは　互いの「最愛」の為だろう Let’s see in the cold bed… Please give me a gentle kiss…シルクに溶ける二人 愛し愛され哀の知りの口移しの溜め息 理解り会う素振りの繰り返し ただ抱いて抱かれてそれだけ　他には何一つ望まず Truth can’t be seen。「望むのなら　ほら No…少しずつ言葉を変えたいだけ ｢最愛｣を欲しがる前に この手をは離して欲しい Let's see in the cold bed…. Please give me a gentle kiss….戻れないと理解ってる 愛し愛され哀を知り 口移しの溜め息 理解り合う素振りの繰り返すのは 抱いて抱かれた感触に　孤独見えたから許せた 重ねた指に さらわれそうになる 答えを求める滑稽さを 理解ってたのに 溢れ出すSorrow シャドーを溶かす 哀し哀され愛を知り 絡め合う吐息に 抜け出せないのは嘘じゃなく 繰り返す度に熱を増す その優しき嘘に 息が止まりそうで また愛する事の重さに 戸惑いが見えても 目を塞げるのはあなたの方ね 孤独を拭う誰かに 揺らいで溺れて この手 離すのは…｢私｣

GENTLE LIE The consequence of one’s weakness is the sake of the mutual beloved Let’s see in the cold bed… Please give me a gentle kiss…, two souls melt in silk. To love, to be loved, the wisdom of sadness, the sighs coming from our mouths Trying to understand and fit over and over again. Just to embrace and be embrace, that alone, I wouldn’t wish for another one. Truth can’t be seen. “hey, if you wish for it” No…I only want these words to change bit by bit. Before I desire for my “beloved” I want these hands to let go. Let's see in the cold bed…. Please give me a gentle kiss….knowing that there is no turning back. To love, to be loved, the wisdom of sadness, the sighs coming from our mouths Is trying to understand and fit over and over again I saw from loneliness to letting in, the sensation of embracing and to be embraced These piled up fingers will almost wash themselves I learned the humour of looking for an answer Flowing out sorrow melts the shadows Sadness, to be sad, knowing what is love, wrapped around sighs What you cannot escape from is not a lie We seem to stop breathing Every time this gentle lie repeats I lose myself again with the one I love, and even if you see it Shutting your eyes is your technique, isn’t it? For someone who wipes away loneliness, you tremble and drown This hand seperation will be by…”me”.

_{I translated the song, so if you find any mistakes, please feel free to tell me. Mistakes leads to a better JLPT grade.And if you plan to use it elsewhere, please credit me.}







And on these silk once again I fall
threading my arms like my threading back those few moments ago
a last whisper of this pathetic escape
I could still hear your mouth breathing raggedly
Sweet gentle thing.


I will never be yours.

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When I first started this series, I thought I should explain the reason behind each photos.(like, how dare I wear that dress when there is a void and empty space between my chest and stuff...ahahahah) but now that I am done I think I won't. I always worked with senses, so I'd just let you feel around the images.

This series of photos are inspired by the song that is playing right now.And heck, this is the only series that caused me a lot of stress,time and dedication. I had to shoot it three times at three different days due to my time limitations. _{which I think is a stupid
decision because I had to repeat making the set,setting the light, make-up etc}

The dress was originally made for persons with medium build. That's why the cloth was basically playing around my bones.That product is a reject from the stuff I am going to sell by September. I can't sell rejects, so all rejects goes to my closet <3

I chosed fabrics that would best express "innocence" with a hint of sexyness (pardon me for attempting!) because Gentle Lie has that feel in it, especially when you know what it's words means.

I wanted to practice photomanipulation, so in this series I used it a lot NOT on myself but on the overall athmosphere of the image.I wanted to show that inner chaos of someone who decided to stop doing what he/she loves because he/she knows that it is wrong by adding layers of textures and texts in different opacity and stuff.I am resolved not to edit faces/skin color/etc DUE TO RACIST 4CHAN FORUMERS _{YOU JEALOUS WHITE FATTIES}.

Besides, I am practicing on my make-up as well. I do think that I improved on it, thanks to Bobbi Brown and Tyra Banks.

Click here for a better look at the headress

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Dress,headress,set,photography,manipulation and shameless camwhore : Catherine Jannelle De Jesus.

Original Photos and offshots could be found here

One down, 13 more series to go.

These things...are the only things that keeps me sane aside from tea and music.
I have five more hours for sleep.

Note to self: Get someone to model or get a boob job. Geez. It just looks awkward seeing some void empty space in there.

[edit] jesus christ, I was joking with the boob job, ahahahhahahah XD
[edit2] For the record, I don't smoke. What would be left of my pathetic health if I do?